Hello 2012

First of all , Hallooo again readers .
Good to finally re-design my blog and start posting again.
So my life has been great so far , i met a lot of new people , and make a lot of friends .

So something not so new and i don't know whether you know about me going to back to campus or not, I continue my study in Universitas Pelita Harapan , or UPH whatever.
And it's just a same old same old campus nothing special , but the Friends i made, YES , They're pretty awesome . I choose Hospitality management in UPH , yet  i don't really have much friends in my faculty, but i do make a lot of friends with other people in different major . We hangout between and ,or after class.

This is me and all my beloved new friends in UPH. Missing one more girl Audrey Amelia :(

I think that's pretty much all about my friends , i actually have more photos with them but i think i'll add it later . I'll keep the post coming .

Ciao
xoxo~

18 eightTEEN

hey bloggers , long time no blog .

there's a lot to tell really ...
The big news is , I DIAN RATRI SITARESMI HAD CANCELLED MY COURSE IN SYDNEY FOR GOOD . I BROKE UP WITH MY BOYFRIEND FOR GOOD for 2 months . I'M EIGHTEEN . I'M STRONG . I'M INDEPENDENT  . I GOT A NEW PUPPY NAME KING .

details to be continue...

xoxo ~ ciao

All the things I left behind

hello bloggers , how are you ?

so i made it to sydney , i'm finally going to college on Monday , part of me is happy , but mostly not ... why ?
i have to leave all the people that i love  the most in my life , my mom, dad and my raditya :'(
i never know how much i need them in my life until my last day in Jakarta , i was crushed , like my chest hurt so bad , when i got on the plane i can't stop crying until i arrived in Sydney the next morning , and i continued to cry every time i'm skype-ing with my mom , and my Raditya :( , i even  cry when i saw the picture we took on the airport together , and cry every time i read the last page of the album that he gave me , i just feel like for one second i want to hug them together and tell them how much they mean to me .

i know this is what i was asking for , but i really don't know this would be so damn hard , i mean i used to live without my mom beside me , i even grew up without her next to me , but i never left her , like never ever . but now i can see her just from skype and hear her voice from the phone , it so frustrating , like i miss her so bad , but i always try to be strong whenever she calls me, i always act like there's nothing wrong cause i don't want her to be worried. i dont feel safe without her beside me :'(
i never stop crying from the first day i got here, it feels so strange to be so far away from my family. i just  wish when i woke up tomorrow i will be in my own room and this is just a nightmare.
and i also wish when i woke up tomorrow i can see my Raditya face , i miss him so bad , i really cant stand even an hour with no contact with him , i never love someone as much as i love him before . and now i really feel like i've wasted a lot of my time with him fighting over something unnecesarry :'( i really miss him , i cry myself to sleep every night even in Jakarta.

that's it for my post today , wish me a lot of luck for my first day in college on Monday guys..cheers!
love you all
Ciao~ xoxo

Thanks For The Memories

hey readers , miss you so much.. :)
First of all i want to say Happy Birthday to my beloved (also annoying) cousin Efrien , she turn 18th today :D
so anyway i just had a chat with stevanus in MSN and he told me to write something about 2010 memories..
so here it goes.. banyak kejadian aneh emang sih tapi ya semoga kalian tahu betapa berwarna nya hidup saya... ha ha ha :p

January , 2010
Hmm.. lemme think.. kalo ga salah bulan januari ini gue lagi deket sama cowo yg gue kenal dari bulan September ya kita sebut saja kambing , tapi it didn't go well karna POLAY (also known as adit yg sekarang pacar gue) dulu llumayan agak menggangu dan ribetin gue gitu ya ama nih cowo. Trus gue inget banget dulu gue punya PLURK dan gue tulis "tuhan baik banget sih tiap mau taun baru pasti gue slalu dijauhin dari POLAY" gitu lah dulu gue benci banget sama si adit karena sikap labil dan noraknya dia itu *noraknya masih sampe sekarang* and gue taun baruan di FX bareng adek klas gue si Mima , karena gue baru balik dari bali gitu deh.

February , 2010
Yaa gue masih deket sama cowo yg gue sebut kambing itu , tapi udh ga segitu gencar lagi sih kaya dulunya, gue udah mulai back off dan cape ati , abis dia kaga putus2 ama cewenya pdhal udah deket sama gue 5 bulan *cape ga sih nungguin orang putusin pacarnya dulu?* , anyway Adit beliin gue elmo 2 biji sama Fererro Rocher gitu deh , kayanya jadi gue enak banget gitu , apa yg gue tweet langsung gue dapet ha ha ha ha :p
Oiya pagi Valentine's day gue anterin teddy bear super gede krumah tetangga gue who's also my friend Winda. dapet dari fans lah biasa.. haha
And the most unforgetable moment itu , pas gue siapin surprise party buat Adit , gatau kenapa gue pengen aja itu nyenengin dia out of nowhere tuh ide dateng, i mean it's the least i can do to make it up to him , after i TOTALLY RUINED his 16th birthday hehe..
So gue siapin sgala perlengkapan dan teman2 gue untuk bantuin gue nyiapin surprise party , si Robbay , Steffira ,Rifqi (pcrnya steffira) , dan Indra Wijaya .
And the surprise went well , trus adit bilang katanya itu pertama kalinya dia dapet surprise party , gue kaget aja dong ya , masa mantan2 pacarnya yg pacaran lama gila sama dia kaga ada inisiatif gitu kasih apa kek pa dia birthday , tapi seneng juga sih ya jdi orang pertama pemecah rekor. haha

March , 2010

Nothing really special happened until the 21st, perlu diketahui ini satu hari sebelum UAN , jadi gini ceritanya kenapa AKHIRNYA gue bisa pacaran sama Adit , pasti semua pada gatau kan sejarahnya gimana (?)

Jadi pada malam hari , sekitar jam 8 , gue punya kebiasaan Online, dari mulai msn , skype , fb smua deh crowded ribet, nah gue nih lagi skypean sama si Adit , trus tiba2 otak gue nih mikir "nih cowo stengah mampus demen sama gue dari dulu tapi ga nembak2 gue , malesin amat sih, gembe!" trus otak liseng gue berbicara " PANCING SITA! PANCING!" jadilah gue ngomong di skype sama adit , "aku mau ganti status fb , nih bingung mau ganti apa ya..?" ingat baik2 yg gue maksud status disini itu status update , tapi karena gue tau adit gampang kepancing jadi gue cuma ngomong status . Trus dia bilang " skalian ganti aja in a relationship, sama aku " ,  gue bilang " oh boleh2 , bentar ya" eh dia sumringah " gausa2 aku aja yg request" .trus nunggu 2 menitan akhirnya IN A RELATIONSHIP! trus banyak komentar2 gtu deh hahahhaha , trus selama UAN berlangsung gue sakit parah karena stress kata dokter gue jadi alhasil gue teler banget dan untungnya masih bisa ikutan ujian , trus slama gue sakit si adit tiap hari pulang krumah gue tungguin gue sakit , suapi makan , kasih obat , kompresin gue , gitu deh seru haha

April-Mei , 2010
Bulan UAS nih (terima kasih Stevanus) ya jadi gue udah jadian sama adit disini , trus uda mau satu bulanan gitu tapi sebelumnya pacar gue dengan gobloknya ketawan nyontek sama si Mr.Hapri guru pengawas gue... cape deh.. trus.. apalagi ya ... ya ampun gue lupa deh , and then bulan Mei gue lebih lupa lagi karena udah jarang2 masuk skolah. udah ga ada kegiatan.. jadi langsung aja ya ke bulan Juni

Juni , 2010
jadi tanggal 1 Juni finally gue berumur 17 tahun , dan juga gue graduation tgl 8 Juni , senangnyaa udah punya KTP.. hahaha , tus gue di kasi surprise sama si adit dan 2 temen gue robby dan steffira mereka dateng krumah gue  gitu bawa2 kue sama hadiah.. gue ga ke sekolah takut disiramin(geer) hahahaha , any way i got a lot of shoes from my friend ad also fro adit , trus dapet jam juga dari dia.. gada yg spesial banget sih secara gue ga perlu nunggu birthday kalo mau sesuatu dari adit , trus gue adain party kecil2 di Venue sama temen2 deket gue , dan juga lunch di Bandar Jakarta sama temen2 lain..Trus gue 3 bulanan sama adit deh hahaha

July-Agustus-September , 2010
4 bulanan pacarn gue sama adit , dibikinin album foto selama 3 bulan pacaran.. hehe lucu deh liat aja di salah satu postingan gue  ada tuh smua nya foto gue upload yg ada di album itu..
5 bulanan gue sama adit gue hampir putus karena emosi gue dan mulut gue yg cablak dn keLabilan dn kelaukan childish si adit yg dulu selalu ngepost semua kejadian di Twitter.
6 bulanan gue , gue lupa asli bener2 ga inget sama skali.. sedikit juga ga inget.. sorry sorry hehehhe

Oktober - November - Desember , 2010
7-8-9 sekarang gue udah 9 bulan loh sama adit , cepet banget deh..
kemaren gue baru aja balik dari trip singkat sama Adit , Nyokapnya dan Adenya dia si Aqsha ke Jogja-Solo-Salatiga , ya ampun sumpah gue baru tau nyokapnya itu orangnya kalo ngomong cablaknya sama kaya gue hahahaha jadi pewe , trus temen2 nyokapnya juga mirip sama temen2 nyokap gue ibu2 gosip gitu yaoloh..
Trus gue belanja dengan brutal seperti biasa kalo gue ke jogja, Malioboro gue bantai trus si adit sampe ga tega ngliar cara gue belanja dan tawar-menawar , tapi ujungnya ketagihan juga dia belanja sama gue.. trus ngajakin balik ke Jogja.. cape deh.. hahahaha

Oh ya i almost forgot , gue keterima di Carrick Institute ,Sydney,Australia , i'll start in February 2011 , gue ambil Comercial Cookery :p
Well, i think that's all for this year end post , i'll be back after new year , hope you enjoy reading my blog and will always do :D
Enjoy your new year , have a blast , cause i know i will :D


ciao~XOXO

INSOMNIA ALERT

hai readers tersayang ,
gue ga bisa tidur nih , dan sekarang jam 4.50 am WIB , abis abca blog nike , trus inget gue udah lama ga update juga.. hehehe :p
sorry sudah lama skali gue ga update blog , lately gue lagi aga kurang sehat dan dilanda berbagai macam penyakit dari mulai migrain sampe radang amandel.... -_-"
terus terus gara-gara radang amandel itu gue berhasil menurunkan berat gue sampe tinggal 55kg dari 57kg, dan officialy saya berhenti merokok HALELUYA(!) , karena kenapa? itu yang namanya radang amandel ... ya tuhan naudzubilahiminzalik sakitnya.. kalo sakit tenggorokan biasa kan at least kalo minum ga sakit gitu ya.. nah ini buka mulut aja sudah berhasil gue menitikan air mata , minum pake sedotan , makan.... ya tuhan 3 sendok makan bubur (dengan tangisan super) sampai mulut  dan tertelan semuanya saja sudah puji tuhan.. bisa terbayang kira-kira sakitnya gimana?? kalo ngga ya gausa dipikirin ya ntar sakit... dan pacar gue baik banget deh selama gue sakit dia dateng kerumah gue tiap pulang kuliah nungguin gue makan, minum obat, trus bobo (NGIRI LU YANG GA PUNYA PACAR HAH? CARI GIH) *evil laugh*
terus yang lucu pas gue mau minum obat kan otomatis mesti buka mulut lebar gtu kan karena dokter gue kasi obat tablet dan kapsul (pengertian abis) terus pas buka mulut karena sakit gue sampe nangis , eh paca gue ga tega dia sampe menitikan air mata juga liat gue begitu , akhirnya gue ketawa ngakak ,trus (hampir) keselek obat. makasih sayang  :*
Oh ya , selama gue sakit kan gue bener-bener ga bisa ngomong (sebenernya bisa aja tapi ya allah gue ngomong kayanya tenggorokan di tusuk pake garpu panas) jadi gue ngomong pake isyarat gitu , lucu deh , kalo mau minta apa-apa tunjuk barangnya , kalo ga bisa ketik di BB hahahaha.. :D

Dan dan dan gara-gara penyakit bedebah itu saya sadar akan kurangnya olahraga saya selama ini , jadi gue join FITNESS FIRST di grand indo bersama my super smart friend Stevanus aka Pan pan ...
Ada lagi yang mau join ??? Gue dan panpan lumayan berhasil mempermalukan diri sendiri di gym (mostly me) :p karena beberapa alat olahraga yang tersedia disana sometimes make you look silly and even dirty ... by silly i mean make you look like you were about o pee but you just have to hold it , and dirty i mean ... gini loh jadi kan segala macam alat disana memiliki fungsi masing-masing , seperti untuk bisep trisep , buat torso , buat paha , betis and so on , dan beberapa alat berhasil membuat saya merasa seperti model playboy karena terliahat aga kurang appropriate pas lagi dipake.. hahahahah

And then , apa ya ... oiya gue kehilangan salah satu  teman dekat gue , Luthfi , dia ga mati kok, cuma dia pindah ke MALAYshit untuk melanjutkan pendidikan nya.. haha..
hmm gue kesepian deh berkurang lagi temen begajulan gue.. tapi yasudalah itu keputusan dia , i just wish him all the luck in the world and i'll miss him so much *tears* :')

Terus  terus terus di Indonesia lagi marak-maraknya bencana gempa-tsunami-merapi serem euy , gue sih jujur sampe sekarang belom nyumbang apa-apa , gue berdoa aja deh , and gue terutama doa buat nenek buyut gue yang masih hidup dan tinggal bener-bener deket danget dari tempat terjadi bencana di daerah SLEMAN gitu.. haduh.. panik sih.. masalahnya ini lo ya gue ga paham what is up with orang jogja.. mereka lebih mending tinggal dirumah sama ternaknya daripada nyelamatin diri sendiri.. ya tuhan ...
Nenek Buyut gue juga gitu , jadi beberapa tahun lalu juga pernah kan gempa di Jogja , dan rumah dia tuh asli rubuh bagai gubuk derita yang telah rata dengan tanah *ga nyambung*  anyway , pas nyokap gue ajak dia ke jakarta selama kita bangun lagi rumahnya dia ga mau loh , gue bingung dong ya, kenapa eh kenapa ada orang ga mau dibawa ke jakarta (?) padahal sudah penuh dengan bujuk rayu gombal kopet *lebay*  tau-taunya dia ngomong begini aja loh " Lah nanti kalo aku ke jakarta ayamku siapa yang ngasih makan (?) " WHAT WHAT WHAT (?) gue disitu asli ngakak sape sakit perut so does my mom , grandma and my uncle...
gile segitu cinta nya dia ama ayam nya sampe takut ayamnya kena gempa.. ya allah.. -__-"

Anyway my point is , gue prihatin dengan kejadian yg terjadi , i hope that  thing will end soon , dan tanpa menambah korban jiwa lagi , AMIN.
saya dari jakarta melaporkan dan mendoakan , kembali kepada diri masing-masing *mulai ngantuk*

okay then i think that's all for today , stay awesome and healthy
ciao ~ XOXO

i wish i wasn't me

current situation : stressful , depressed , upset .
i wish i can skip this day..
i feel like dying..
i am disappointed..

Coffeebreak story

hello readers ,
udah lama ya ga ngepost , banyak deh yg mau gue ceritain , kangennyaaa... :D :D
so ini tanggal 10.10.10 gue jamin banyak yg nikah dan jadian.. ckckck..
gue kadang suka heran orang kok actually cari tanggal pacaran yg bagus-bagus gitu ,i mean what's the point if they can't stay in that relationship? haha *curcol* and speaking of relationship guy postingan gue kali ini lumayan mau membahas tentang itu juga.. hehehe..  so let's get started..

Jadi beberapa hari ini hubungan gue dengan pacar sedang di test luar biasa ya gatau kenapa , dair mulai teman saya 'menceritakan' kalo dia liat pacar gue di senci (yg sebenernya cuma ngesot dari kampus dia) sama cewe gitu lah , dan disaat itu gue lagi bbm-an sama pacar gue dan PENDING gitu bbm nya , terus saat itu pacar gue ga bilang kalo ternyata dia pergi ke senci sama temennya dan begitu gue denger kabar begitu dari temen gue langsung emosi jiwa setengah mampus. I know my friend and they won't lie to me , tapi setelah itu gue ga tanya sama cowo gue (gue pikir dia bakal  ngomong sama gue) , ternyata kaga aja loh , yauda dong under that circumstances gue cuma bisa berfikir PACAR GUE BOHONG SAMA GUE DAN PERGI SAMA CEWE LAIN (go die son of a bitch! that's what i said when i heard that news) yang gue aja gak kenal siapa gitu. terus aja deh gue emosi dan seperti abg labil gue marah-marah di twitter.. karena gue bukan tipikal cewe yang suka nangis(lagi setelah 1 taun lebih) jadilah gue pergi sama temen gue Billy , Luthfi dan Efrien , nongkrong di J CO dan gue nonjokin tembok dari mulai duduk sampe mau pulang.. (kebiasaan baik gue) hahahaha.. Dan setelah itu gue ga mau cerita ahh.. USE YOUR IMAGINATION  ;)

" I love you so much , but when you try to do things I DON'T LOVE , you'll find out just how much i do"

i think that's all i want to write.. actually that's not exactly what i want to write in this post , but ... nahh.. let the secret stay that way .:p


ciao readers ~ xoxoxo